Friday, March 7, 2008

"The Future is Here"

There’s the broken steeple

Whose fundamentals I once clung to

Hanging like Jesus himself

From the crutch of rusted redemption

Who’s redeeming qualities proved futile

To the French Revolution

Was it the Romantic Era that captured me?

Or the gore of Realism?

I cannot tell you my friend

All good things must end

All good men will bend the rules

In those times of desperation

All I’m saying is look out for those

Who will swear on their mother’s grave

They have never sinned

Have never been sinners

Clearly that act alone will show

They are the most indecent of all the saints

Free yourself from revolution

Her cycle is slow when compared to man’s lifespan

But still prevalent throughout history

The slow decline, then sudden movement

Such a strong force to change the world

Only to watch her fall back into nature

Once the tension has grown too taught

I cannot tell you my friend

If the day of the dead is when the world will end

But I do know for sure that the end is coming

And has been coming since it all began

The future is here

She is here now, and now

And now

Friday, February 8, 2008

"Bartender's Scar"

Coyotes look to an industrial sky
While poets pine
Conceptualize the pioneer days
Ministers walk the invisible line
Tell me one more thing God did for mankind

Opposite the trail mix
Staling on the bar
I catch a glimpse of the bartender's scar
Beneath his high collar
"That's just proof that I exist,
In one way or another"
She smothers him into believing
That he can't live without her
She can't live without him,
So, I don't doubt her

Art is the story
So tried and true
Whose dues have been paid
But never proved
Blues hold the rhythm
The secret code of life
Whose knife shoved so deep in your back
It's a struggle just to survive

I am gagged and blindfolded
Perfected and molded to be
A perfect ideal of humanity
I have left so many places
I can't even count all the lives
I've lived as an attempt
To feel alive

Man does strive for perfection
I hold this one truth true
But not as close to my heart as God
As you
Who were you before you crossed the river?
Who were you in dawns deepest blues?
Who were you when the old man poured his heart out
Just after his poor old heart broke in two?

Should the island shudder
Plunge itself back into the sea
Should the ape man de-evolve
Turn the wheels of human history
Should the sun burn out
Leave nothing but complacency
Pieces of who we used to be
Nothing but pieces of who we used to be

"Mud and Sand"

I woke to
The horizon blue
Basking gently on Sunday morning
Where I saw
Your perfect flaws
Now and again
I understand
Nature's truth
And law

With every page who unfolds
I reach to unfold another
Let me plunder
In my wondering
Let me wander
Aimlessly
I want your love to envelope me
Open my eyes so I can see
What in this illusion
I have been missing

I am kissing toes
And finger tips
My lips are chapped with soars
Happenstance is coincidence
Rich men can be poor
Even lonely men
Adore from afar
Leave the door ajar
And I am sure to venture in
I am learning to transcend
My friend
See the means to the end
See yourself for who you are
And love you not despite
But instead
Because I understand
Via sea and land my lover
Via mud and sand

"Great Fuehrers"

I'm too proud
Never realized
Until now
I didn't walk away to save you
Walked to save face
To abandon faith
With which comes responsibility
Told myself
I can't change,
So change this
Couldn't change because
I refused to look in the mirror
Was scared shitless of
Being heartless or worse
Heart hurt
I've worked too hard to get here
Watch the smoke float
Into a leery sky
There is no way to deny
That love is never enough
It is just something
That gets you through the tough stuff
And makes the nirvana seem endless
I flounder in indecision
Should I surrender to the darkness or the light?
Bear in mind
It is easier to destroy the light inside yourself
Than to defeat the darkness all around you
I wonder if I haven't found it
Then abandoned the truth
Without intending to
One glance and she changes her form
Changes from bitterness to scorn
In perseverance I am helpless
To what comes unto my soul
This foul smell will not leave me
Instead of deceit I try realism
Realistically it is not as affective
As in theory
I am not worried
So many great fuehrers were great
In theory

"Cross the River Pt. 2"

I was a different person after I crossed the river
They warned me not to, but I crossed it anyway
I lost myself that day and have been searching for her ever since
Only to find that she is gone

"Rite of Passage"

When I was a younger woman I made a promise to myself
To be good and to appreciate life and how it felt
With time I became a less conscious being
Forgot to pay attention to each moment in passing
Addressed the hard shit with passive aggression, while laughing
Could not hide the fact that I wasn't as brave as I'd hoped to be
So I perfected my poker face 'till I believed I had cards to play
Reveled in the bad shit to seem okay
Talked about magick, about God and his mysterious ways
Talked with logic 'till there was nothing logical left to say
'Till there was nothing logical left to say

This slow decent into psychosis has my mind playing tricks on me
Never sure if what is in front of me is a front or reality
If what I heard were sound waves or unwarranted interpretation
Not to mention environment cues sending me into a steep spiral case
Of recollection and déjà vu of another place
Was it memory or a dream?
Its hard to say

There has to be another way to go about this
Has to be something I missed
Must be a soft kiss in this fist fight
Have to find a way to escape the wrong and seek the right
Hell is rite of passage is what I say
But hey, what did I say?

I am looking to escape the warm heat that envelopes me
This satin sheet that comforts me
I am seeking shelter against the wind
While turning myself out again and again
I reckon there must be secret meaning hidden in this pattern
But then, that's not what she said

Narrowly dodged the draft
Mapped the path till my prints soiled the page
Abandoned my destiny with outrage only because
I wasn't willing to attempt the maze
Hope to look back on these days
And minimalize farther yet
Till there is nothing left to say
And I manage to forget

"Cross the River"

Was a different person after I crossed the river
The scenery was the same but the colors had changed
Felt a different person once shaken from the water
Awake a father and a mother at the same time
What happened there, lying among the rocks
I can never describe to you
It was beyond what language can provide
Can best be described as a slide show of vivid imagery
First one and then the other shown its face to me
Lying on the bank I was faced with complacency
I was a different person after I crossed the river